so close i can smell the fear

i had crit from nine in the morning to five thirty for core yesterday. great last class some really fucking amazing work from people i was glad to meet i would like to see what they do in the future sean and eva and cassidy among them. there were two full nude pieces, one was five photographs this girl did of herself they were really impressive and brave. also preston did somethings where he cleaned his bed and around it and brought all that into class and catalogued it so as to take hold of his shit that folowed him, then during the crit he proceeded to take his clothes off rather apprehensively but it was a good thing and he was just in his birthday suit in the hallway with a class of forty people around him. for those keeping score thats two pairs of live balls ive seen in crit this semester.
then i ran home to grab my painting and came back for class at six where i had my research final crit form six to eleven, that was just crazy more than a crit the assignment was bad art and it wild, many jokes and fuck yous were produced, also i was given quite the good crit about how the best of my work for that class is reactionary and highly autobiographical. however it does not work at all outside of the classroom, so i have to work on things that have that layered personal history and clever integration of history but are also engaging to the everyman and how i can give them some of that content. while maintaining a dignity in nuance and subtlety.

philly too fucking soon, i dont wana grow up i just want to live and make things, not even art just objects for people to experience and the occasional image if thats how it has to be. no job fuck that but life is money, not, but yeah whateves it will have to come to me at some point.

lets fuckinhg walk in the heat with a half gallon of wawa green tea and then play chess on the sidewalk and have a nice conversation as the sun goes down, then go get ripped and dance dance dance and walk arround some more then fall asleep somewhere and wake up in the mourn then do it again.